This quote, “write what you see”, rings so true to me. I realized that so often I write and speak based on what I believe other people are seeing, what other people want to hear, what other people think, and how other people will respond… basically, will ‘they’ approve? So often there are so many hidden agendas (a manipulative force) that dictates what and how I deliver my message. Filter upon filter, before I actually get out what it is that I really want to say. Filters can be helpful, indeed, however if they are actually dulling or deluding the depth of the message, than in my opinion filters are in actuality a hindrance.
This blog is about my freedom. Gaining the courage to speak my truth, my perceptions, my awarenesses, my thoughts, and mostly, ‘what i see’ in this world – all this without guarding or filtering the message. I will write as if I am writing in my own personal journal. I will write as if I am writing to my Self, no one else! There is no hidden purpose with this blog. I only want to be able to speak and feel liberated. Supposedly this is what blogging was all about in the first place. However, now we see it as a tool for fame! I am not interested in fame… what i am interested in is understanding the nature of the human heart. Why we continue to suffer? why we continue to separate? why we make the choices we make? and how, in this 21st century can we actually blow open the cosmic heart so that true healing can occur?
The state of our planet concerns me, as it concerns many. And furthermore, the state of our human relations concerns me as much or more! All I see, as I walk around this planet are wounded hearts. I see mothers who don’t look at their children – they don’t SEE them. I see workers who treat their employees like shit. I see teachers yelling at students. I see people on the streets who see each other with more wisdom then most of us. I see a world that is so preoccupied with the illusion of money, that we choose to NEGLECT that which is right in front of us.
I see a world that is terrified of conflict and trying to avoid it at all costs and yet in the end, we perpetuate a cycle of external conflict – WAR – and we collectively agree that this is OK! I see a north american culture terrified to look at themselves. A culture that is so fucken afraid to live, so instead we hand our internal power over to the ‘gatekeepers’ and the ‘systems’, rather than hone up and take responsibilities for our lives!
I see people walking around wanting so badly tot be noticed. I see that we talk ALOT about what we think and feel, but very few people actually put those thoughts and feelings into action. We are becoming a society of IDEOLOGIES, and I question the good that this is doing if we cannot be congruent with our hearts. I see we are so terrified to LOVE because we deeply lack TRUST.
I see that for the most part, I am afraid to speak my perceptions because I too, want to be loved, liked, and accepted. So what do I do, I filter. I see that ‘good girls’ who don’t question are still much more appreciated. And, I know that this is bull shit!
The other day, I saw that if you don’t have LOVE at the core of your relationships you cannot know JOY, and I saw this because I was paying attention to not only my relationships but those that surround me as well…
I see that NOTHING MATTERS yet everything matters… and I see, that the only way true change can occur is if we globally get out of our heads and into our hearts. According to Caroline Myss, the heart must lead and the head follow… and the true path, is to become congruent rather than in conflict with the head and heart! I believe that there is truth in this statement, because if we were to make most of our human choices from the mind of the heart, we would NOT choose what we choose! The heart knows no fear yet she lives in chaos.
Chaos reins, this is a truth… all change is chaos. Conflict, I believe is due to the unwillingness to allow chaos to occur, which leads to transformation… conflict occurs when we are not congruent! Yet, when that feeling of conflict (tension, angst, uncertainty) starts to stir in the body it serves as an indication that transformation is near. Conflict tells us “PAY ATTENTION” you are ignoring something crucial. The joy of conflict is that it allows for an opportunity to arise, an opportunity to find clarity before resolution.
I see a culture running from conflicts of the heart. Afraid of sitting in the fire… afraid to speak their ‘truth’ and say what they ‘see’. What is the fear? Perhaps, the only way our culture knows how to handle conflict is to either run and hide or rather, ANNIHILATE the other – to get rid of therefore, no need to have to look at ‘that’ anymore. We do this in church, we do this in war, we do this in relationships… We do this! When in actuality, to seek clarity and dig deeper and nurture the relationships rather than separate, everyone comes out liberated.
It is said that the male hormones for stress cause the “flight and fight” response, where as the female hormones for stress cause “tend and mend” tendencies. One is to annihilate the other, where as the other is to seek and nurture resolution. If you pay attention, culturally due to the fact that we have devalued Women for so long, we have also devalued our cultural ability to heal and resolve conflict. The masculine domination that has been running this world for centuries, is getting OLD… it is no longer serving and if we were to drop into the heart, we could see this. It is not that one way of resolving conflict is better than the other, it is just that we – globally and collectively – have ignored a very important feminine principle. It is the nurturing of the collective feminine heart that will nurture our planet back to health and restitution. It is necessary that our human race begin to seek clarity & resolution individually, communally, and globally since it is from this place that we can engage the conscious heart and truly start to mend the broken pieces of our planet (recognizing that not all is broken or in pain).
I see this in the birthing ‘industry’. Each industry is seeing an increase in the reliance on technology, an increase in fear, an increase in conflict and therefore, an increased need to control the ‘other’. How does this run away train stop? How do we pause to really listen and hear what the other is saying? And how do we motivate ourselves collectively to care enough to hear each others positions? Can one position be better than the other position? From which angle to we need to see each of these positions? Personal and Global? And furthermore, I questions, is there a collective global value that we could all agree upon? We are sitting in the midst of total chaos and change… it is inevitable. And so, what are you/we going to do about it? It is great to have ideas… but how are you/we going to apply it? It is great to be spiritual, but what are you doing on the earth to expand your human heart and connect with another?
Write What You ‘See’ I say, because if we were to all just write what we are perceiving from our hearts and truly listen to one another, maybe we would collectively find resolution. Don’t hold back, let it all out. This is not about bashing another, no this is about writing what you are noticing? Internally and externally. This is not about complaining, but rather about making statements. When you write from the heart, you bare your soul… Seek to understand and you ‘see’ all…
Blessings
